i tumble sometimes

i fight my eyes from staring down at the ground

walking downtown

staring at my feet right left right

but my crooked walking

doesnt come close

to my speech

tongue twisted

the loss of comprehension

between my mind and my lips

leaving me like a glacier

exposing only the surface

of my being

certain to bring disaster

hello

some say im confident

friendly and gregarious

quick to make friends

but even quicker to lose them

scared of looking forward as i walk

scared of who i am

of who i can be

childish

sick to my stomach from the orgasmic nature

of life

i mumble when i speak normaly

but here

i am so much better

here you comprehend me

here i fear not your rejection

i dont need you to like me

here i shake

already broken down ive got nothing to hide

i am figments of crushed dreams

shards of old memories

i am in love … with him

friends with you

i am still scared but not

as much

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