why cant i ever say no ?
gah i say no right when it doesnt matter but always yes when it promises the giving up of me
with chapped lips
let me kiss your hands
because i love what you write
kiss your neck
kiss you mouth
i love the way you sing
i cover my eyes so i can take it in
everything you say
is amazing
im so in love with your voice, with your words, i wanna kiss your writing hands i wanna taste words off your lips and i’ve never met you
i feel like a child
wanting wishing
for things im certain exist
like unicorns and pots of gold under rainbows
but ive found the unattainable
the boy made up of purely song
he isnt real
he is a floating melody in my mind
yes i love him and
reality holds no comparison
ive been thinking about you recently
and how much i wish i could see you one last time
how id find you
what i would say
how you would act
i reason youd either avoid me
or pick me up in you arms
and ask me to run away
you told me once
you would use your charm to get girls
attracted to you for fun
im scared i was just one of those
you said i wasnt but where the hell are you now??
on another note i miss singing
alot
but i really like folk/indie
i wish i could sing that but i cant :[
i wanna feel sand through my toes
watch only sunrises with you im tired of
always having to say goodbye and goodnight
sa drôle comment certaines personnes laissent une telle impression sur vous
i met a russian 2 yrs younger than me i wanted to swim in his eyes and hold his beautiful hands
i felt like a pedo
i need a vacation to run like a child
not knowing at all where im going
but loving the sensation of flying
wear the pretty purple chiffon dress to the party
that lasts till to late at night
that requires handsome dates
painful heels the night yuoll remember
the faces youllforget
like driving down town 100 miles per hour
blurry lights blurry faces blurry life
living to fast
to recall the last time you kissed and ment it
shook hands and ment it
or even remember the poor fucker
you left in bed this morning
your dress is pretty purple chiffon
short enough to grab attention
long enough avoid female glares
that feel crude like dull pointy needles
filled with jealousy and un-approval
pretty and purple over used for speed excitement
ripped off by lusty thoughts
i hear your shoes click on the concrete
getting a ride home
some home
some place
you forgot how you arrived
you stared at the window and laughed
wide eyed like a childs first time in disney land
before you know its all plastic
like your girlfriends new chest
blasting moments music forgotten in two months
replaced in seconds
its hip
were hip
we are young
you are young
run fast
drink slow
kiss smooth
fuck everything
you had a pretty purple chiffon dress
over worn
over used
over thrown
by time
its frayed at the edges missing seams
dull lavender and looks like cheese cloth
and you try so fucking hard to remember
everything you did in that dress
spread out threads
delicate and thin memories
torn cheaply replaced
you looked beautiful
but your not the same anymore
goals
-find a lover/bf
-kiss the stars
-stay out too late
-catch falling leaves
-meet new friends
-hang out
-go down a hill
-learn to slide
-beach !!!!!!!
-sd roadtrip suckasss
-help at work
-hang out with peets coffee peeps
-SUMMER SCHOOL thing i have to dooo
….
the plot thickens
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ten fingers that serve as brushes
paint murals of humanity on skylines
mistaken for the dawn
remember the feelings
turn happiness to yellows
loves to melted purple
life turns to you
paint me
-finish summer school
-survive dumb parents
…. im to upset
Its this skin that has become my cage
flesh rotting away my soul my fervor
wrinkling against time
and damaged with harsh reality
explain why
when i know that this “mortal coil”
holds me down
they say its gravity but i know better
my soul is restless eager to escape
crawling out my mouth tasting wind
like freedom
catching on fire like oil
impassioned
then crawls back inside me
fearing its last view
the scariest sight
you
because i care so much
what you think and
feel
but the possibility of
of your rejection is overwhelming
“don’t care what others think”
“just be yourself “
but what if ourself isn’t
good enough
all this preparation and pep talk
leaves us like story books with no pages
and we walk through our lives wearing cages
used more like armor
to keep chance out
but im daring myself
to let you in
have shooting stars be flash backs
of our space traveling bodies shuffling off skin
getting to know each other
really know each other
shamefully
but never regretful
always passionate
loving
and after
lay next each other like fallen trees
with nothing left to lose
intertwining fingers and branches
in between dimensions
that forgot to include time
meshed together sunrise an sunset
filling the sky with our chances
explosion
free for all
paint
on atmospheres canvas
with our finger tips
leave our initials on the sand
swept away told
to passer bys
becoming legends
larger than giants
on steroids
i promise youll hit home runs
every time you hold my hand
and whisper our future like ocean breeze
wrap your arms around me like
blankets on winter evenings
but for right now unzip me
so you can see my skeleton and organs fly away
see my flawless
slightly used soul
kiss me
so we might taste eden
from our bedrooms
